So….as my billions (i.e. handful) of loyal readers may have noted, I have been silent for the past several months. There’s been a lot going on in my life lately. Writing about it might actually have been a better way to deal with everything, but alas…earwax.
Anyone? No. Hmph.
Anyway. Here is a list of the stuff I have/had on my plate. I know it’s none of your business and you probably don’t care, but whatever.
1) In February I was diagnosed with very aggressive Crohn’s disease.
For those of you who don’t know what Crohn’s is, the short story is that my body is trying to kill me, and it makes me poop a lot. I have (very painful) ulcers throughout my digestive tract and have to take chemo drugs to suppress my immune system enough for my body to heal itself. I lost a lot of weight. Like, enough that people who didn’t know I was sick were worried that I was sick. I raked up a lot of medical bills. My depression got worse. It was rough. I’m doing very well now, with treatment and lifestyle adjustments, and have gotten back to a healthy weight, but I’m not in remission yet. Fingers crossed! To learn more about Crohn’s disease and whatnot, check out the CCFA – they’re a really great nonprofit.
2) My depression became almost crippling.
Seriously. If I hadn’t been working 40-80 hours on any given week, and didn’t have my boyfriend and bar friends to keep me going, I don’t know what I would have done. If you’re depressed, I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with you. It’s not your fault, and don’t let anyone try and tell you to “just snap out of it,” or “quit feeling sorry for yourself”. I think everyone, even “normal” people should see therapists. Everyone can benefit from an objective third party who has your best interests in mind and helps you introspect, but it’s especially helpful for people suffering from depression, anxiety, etc. I’m on medication now, which helps with the chemical imbalance that predisposes me to ultra-sensitivity to environmental factors. And the environmental factors, I’m working on with my therapist and family to sort out. So things are looking up!
3) Thanks to Numbers 1 and 2, I amassed actually crippling debt.
It’s really bad. Plus the student loans and a car payment. The most important thing I learned in college, is that if you’re not trying to be a doctor or a lawyer, it doesn’t really matter where you go to college. I wouldn’t have done anything differently, because it’s unhealthy to think that way, and I wouldn’t trade all the friends I’ve made (not to mention my wonderful boyfriend) just to be debt-free. I would just advise anyone getting ready to go to college (or to go into debt for any reason) to think long and hard about your real ability to pay the debt off. Thank god you can consolidate federal loans.
4) I moved back to Ohio.
Not that I didn’t love New York. I’ll always love New York, but because of numbers 1-3 on this list, it just wasn’t working out. I always said I would never really belong to the Boomerang Generation, but I guess when the sticker price on your Bachelor’s degree is $25ok and you can’t balance a budget to save your life, it becomes sort of a self-fulfilling prophecy. I also was just ready for a slower pace of life, cheaper rent, and better job prospects. And so was my boyfriend, which is why he came with me (even though he’s from New England, and the Midwest is like a foreign country to him)! Talk about dedication. Also, it turns out Cincinnati is actually a really cool place. I bitched about it a lot when I was growing up – Cincinnasty and The Nasty ‘Nati were a couple of my friends’ and my favorite nicknames – but for someone who spent the better part of her youth moving around a lot, I didn’t realize I’d put down any roots until I was trying to plant the tree somewhere else.
So, yeah. There’s a lot going on. But never fear – MrsWillShakes is back, and better than ever! In addition to getting back on track with DisneyQuest, I’ll also be starting an exciting new project with my boyfriend. More on that later, but we’re super excited and think y’all will really dig it, so stay tuned!